End of Days

We are now 30 days from what some claim to be the end of the world, based on the Mayan calendar ending on December 21st, 2012.  I'm not even going to get into what I personally think about this prophecy or those who want to spread this as gospel....because I'm sure my thoughts aren't anything new to anyone who doesn't blindly believe things like this, and have been voiced by many, many people who are much more capable of putting these thoughts eloquently.  Instead, when I realized we were a month from December 21st, my thoughts swung to what I would do with my last 30 days on Earth if I knew for sure they were upon me.

Now I've never liked the term "Bucket List", kinda cringe when I hear it really, but I have had a list of things I want to do/see before I die for much longer than I can remember this term being around.  It all started some years back, in the bedroom of my childhood home....and pretty much on a whim.  I was somewhere in my teens, but I can't remember the exact age.  Truth be told, I was probably in some state of temporary depression due to a personal relationship not going the way I wanted, and contemplating what may lie ahead for me in life.  You know, normal teenage crap you think is all important and exclusive to just you when it's happening.

Anyway, I remember grabbing a piece of paper....a notebook actually, because most of my teenage creativity was poured into random notebooks, and jotting down the title of "Things I Want to Do Before I Die".  While most of the things I thought were of uber importance to me at that time in my life are actually pretty laughable now, and most have been forgotten, this one actually stuck with me for years, and to this day actually....hence this blog post.

For several years I had this list packed away somewhere safe and added to it whenever something popped into my head, and I was fortunate enough to cross a few things off that list too from time to time.  It was one thing I was sure I would always keep close to me....especially considering that I truly didn't believe I was going to live past the age of 30 for most of my life before I actually turned 30.  Even though this notebook, which had a lot of other random thoughts and quotes in it, meant a lot to me, it somehow got separated from me while living in my second house....something I'm still unhappy I let happen, even though I have no idea when or how it actually happened.

Anyway, I can remember the very first thing I wrote on that list, and that is still number one to me since I haven't done it yet, and that was to see the pyramids in Egypt.  So if I knew that I only had 30 days left to live, I would definitely find a way to get myself, LM, and the kids to the pyramids and finally see them in person.  While that may not be the very first thing I would do in my last 30 days, just because of the logistics of it all, it's the very first thing on my list, and would definitely get done at some point.

Hopefully I'll be able to get 30 things up here in the next 30 days, probably not in 30 different posts though considering my past record for things like this and my super low post count for the year.  But considering this is something that is going to affect my life in one way or another in the future, I'm sure it'll be on my mind enough to get me to post at least the most important ones.

Grainy

Trudging off to work on Wednesday nights is never fun, but when I'm packing up the beginnings of a migraine to come along with me....it's downright terrible.  Just about everything I do at work can make a normal headache turn into a migraine, much less an already bad headache.  Just the setting alone can give me a headache, throw on top of it the terrible hours, the quick change in the weather, and a problem getting restful sleep....ugh.

That all being said, I am really looking forward to the couple days I get off after all this.  I need to suck it up and power through this night.  Something else I really need to do....stop writing this blog.  The computer screen is making all this head pain a hell of a lot worse.

It's Hard to Rely on My Good Intentions....

It's been nearly two weeks since my last post, but my intentions were to post on many of the days since then. For at least the first five days of November I had something to say, and was hoping to get some of those thoughts up here....but completely failed to.

My biggest hurdle of late is finding a time that is appropriate to pull up blogger and start typing away. I don't know that I ever think it's the proper place or time to just start plugging away at a new post. There's always something else to do, or someone to talk to that I don't want to neglect just to get a post up. In the past I've tried making a note on my phone, or on a scrap piece of paper, and coming back to that later. Unfortunately not all of what I am thinking is going to make it onto that note, and I might as well just make a full post if it is, and when I come back to it I hardly ever remember exactly what I was going to say.

So now with the intent and desire to post definitely present, I'm sure posts will make it up here more often than they have in the last couple years....I just need to figure out when and where is a good time to write. I used to force myself to write every single day, whether I posted it or not, for 5-30 minutes. A lot of writers I knew used this to jumpstart their days or to keep their creative minds sharp, and I tried it our myself, with various degrees of success. Some posts I loved came our of these forced sessions, while a lot of the rest were just discarded. Maybe I can figure out a day and time each week I can do this again. Starting off at once per week will be a lot easier with my schedule than trying to do it every day.

No matter what, I believe this does show a little promise for things to come with my mostly stagnate blog.

Noviembre

Three calendar months without a post....and I could really care less about that. I remember the days when I couldn't go three days without posting and not feeling bad about it. Truth be told, the only reason I am here right now is that I noticed I had a link to this blog on my Facebook page and clicked on it to see how long it had been. I found it ironic that the most recent post was about starting up the Pic-A-Day thing again when I was just thinking about what I would be using as the subject of today's pic.

I've stuck with the picture thing since that last post, but not on a strict daily basis. Skipped a few days here or there without thinking about it at first, then I just got a little tired of trying too hard to find something of interest every single day and got a little lax with it....which completely defeats the point since I wanted to use it to help chronicle my day to day life without having to come here and type it all out. Having that in mind, I had just reaffirmed my commitment to taking pics on a daily basis when I stumbled on the link for this blog.

There was a time once that I loved writing posts for this blog, but things changed.  To be honest, it still seems like a chore that I don't want to get back into the habit of doing again on a regular basis.  On the other hand, I'm also curious about whether or not I could get back into the swing of it again if I just plodded through a few weeks of posting every single day, even if it's just a few sentences or even just a quick quote.  I don't post on Facebook anywhere near every day, and I have that at my fingertips 24/7....so who knows what will come of something like that, but as of today I am 1 for 1 in November and hope that I can find it in me to get something up here every day this month, or at least very close to it.

If I can, I'll be able to see if this blog is something I want to do on a regular basis again, from time to time, or never again.  If it's the latter, I may just have to put it in moth balls and close up shop for good.