Friday I'm in Love

I'm so glad this work week is finally coming to an end. My work hasn't been terribly hard this week or anything, but it's just been a LONG week. I'm pretty exhausted. Lately all I do is work, go directly to the gym from work, then take a nap, get up for another couple hours after my nap, then go back to sleep.

This week I don't know that I ever recovered from the fatigue of giving blood after spending a couple hours in the gym. When I sat down to start my donation process, my legs and arms were shaking and the nurse wondered aloud if I was lying about being "in good health" like I claimed to be. That was Tuesday, and even though I got in bed pretty much right after the gym every day since, I still didn't get much sleep those nights. I'm a tired boy now. While tomorrow won't exactly be a "sleep in" day since I have to pick up my family from the airport, sleeping past 4:00 is considered "sleeping in" for me nowadays. Wow....that sucks.

Anyway, just a few hours left before I can get a nap in before heading out for a night with a whole bunch of my friends. Hanging out tonight should help my overall blah mood from this week. Especially if the weather stays dry and I can get some two-wheel therapy tonight and tomorrow.

Morning Music 7-31-09

1. Half-Truism- The Offspring. "Your self-liberation Will leave this behind Beyond slings and arrows That rain on our minds You’ll make it better Shake it off It never mattered anyway"

2. I Need You- Leann Rimes. "You're the hope that moves me To courage again You're the love that rescues me When the cold winds, rage And it's so amazing 'Cause that's just how you are And I can't turn back now 'Cause you've brought me too far"

3. In Praise of the Vulnerable Man- Alanis Morrissette. "This is a thank you for letting me in....And I vow and I vow to be true And I vow and I vow to not take advantage"

4. Unglued- Stone Temple Pilots. "This confusion is my illusion Nowhere to look, but know where to find ya All these things I'm sick about, I'm sick about They always come unglued"

5. Devil Without a Cause- Kid Rock. "People claimin' that they know me, but they only know a portion"

6. Friday I'm in Love- The Cure. "Throwing out your frown And just smiling at the sound And as sleek as a sheik Spinning round and round Always take a big bite It's such a gorgeous sight"

7. Any Other Day- Wyclef and Norah Jones. "What, will, I, have, left (tell me tell me) (Somebody tell me now) When, this, hard, rain's, gone awayyy Today is, not like, any other DAYYYYYYY So I'm gone, I have to find, my own wayyyyyyyyyy (People, we gotta find another way!) Can, you, tell, me, how When, the, hard, rain's, gone (ah-ah-away)"

8. Ring of Fire- Johnny Cash. "Bound By Wild Desire I Fell Into A Ring Of Fire....The Taste Of Love Is Sweet When Hearts Like Ours Meet I Fell For You Like A Child Oh,But The Fire Went Wild"

9. Orphans- Jack's Mannequin. "I am looking for a sign My spirit's faded"

10. Machine- Regina Spektor. "And you live in the future And the future It's here, it's bright, it's now"

Gone Klepto

Supposedly, some people who suffer from Kleptomania don't even relize that they are stealing. I've also read that a lot of what Kleptomaniacs steal are small, inconsequential items. Pens, paper clips....stuff like that. Knowing this prompted me to briefly believe this morning that I may have had a Kleptomaniac episode over the weekend.

Saturday was pretty normal for me. I slept in a little, hit the gym, then headed out to do some grocery shopping at Meijer. I needed some other things too, so I was dragging myself around the store for a little while, making sure I hit every area of the store I might need something from.

Finally I am ready to hit the check out line, and notice there isn't much of a wait at all at the U-Scan machines. In a matter of minutes I'm scanning my stuff, loading it into two bags, and paying for everything. Grab my receipt and toss both bags in the top area of my cart and head out the door. On the way to my car, I do the right thing with my basket and put it into the corral before getting to my car. I lift my two bags out of the top of the basket and head out of there, pleased with how the day has been going.

Fast forward to this morning. 95% of what was in one of my bags ended up in my bathroom for daily use and the other 5% ended up in the closet just outside the bathroom because they were things I'd be using in the near future. Mouthwash, deoderant, toothpaste....this sort of stuff. Anyway, after I am showered up and have eaten breakfast, I get fully dressed and wander into the bathroom to do my hair and brush my teeth before I head out.

Once my hair is done and my mouth sufficiently rinsed with Listerine, I open a new tube of toothpaste and grab my toothbrush. But this is my old toothbrush, not the new toothbrush I picked up on Saturday. Now I don't swap out my toothbrush every 12 days like the ADA likes to tell you to, but I do change them pretty regularly. Once I am done with the old one, I toss it in the trash next to the sink and grab the new one out of the medicine cabinet. Which is exactly what I did this morning....well, except that my routine went out the window as soon as I opened my cabinet.

Strange. I didn't put my new toothbrush in the cabinet yet. OK, it must be in the closet with the extra toothpaste and deoderant I put in there Saturday. Nope. Hmmm, I wonder if I left it in the bag. Negative. No toothbrush in the bag, but the receipt was still there so I glanced at it. Not on the receipt either. WTF?

Then it all comes back to me. As I was picking things off the shelf in Meijer, I put almost everything in the top section of the cart. Even though I needed quite a few things, they were all pretty small and fit right in there. The one exception was the toothbrush. It was too narrow to lay in the top without falling through a crack into the bottom of the basket or onto the floor.

Since I didn't want to risk it dropping onto the floor, I put it in the bottom of the basket right away. And there it stayed throughout my shopping. And my check out. And even after I put the cart back in the corral. Yep, I unknowingly stole a toothbrush from Meijer. Then gave it right back when I put my cart away. I guess I am not a great thief.

I really had mixed feelings about this once I realized what happened. I don't think I've stolen anything from a store since I was about 5 and took too many pieces of Bazooka bubble gum for the amount of money I gave the clerk. A handful of nickels and dimes, a handful of gum, a clerk who definitely wasn't smarter than a 5 year-old me....it was the perfect crime. Until my mom found out.

You would have thought I stole the Hope Diamond with her reaction. Thankfully she stopped short of making me go back in there and confess to the clerk at the store, but that talk has stuck with me since. This is just another example of how lucky I was to get the parents I did. Sooner or later, no matter how they are brought up in the first place, most kids (especially boys) try stealing something. It can be a 5 cent piece of gum or something of much greater value. The principle is the same. Having a good parent handle the situation, though, makes all the difference in the world.

With my mother handling it the way she did, I never felt right even thinking about stealing anything after that....and that's the first thing that popped into my head when I realized what had happened. Not only had I stole something, but I stole something from my mother's employer. Nevermind that I didn't do it on purpose, or that I didn't even pack it into my things as I left the parking lot. Just the fact that I was careless enough to do that without even thinking bothered me enough.

Well, that and looking at my only toothbrush sitting in the trash without a replacement in the house.

Morning Music 7-23-09

I've noticed a couple things over the last few playlists. Love inspires a lot more songs on my iPod than I ever noticed and Mariah Carey may be batshit crazy....but that girl really can sing.

1. Hell Song- Sum 41. "Why do the things that matter the most Never end up being what we chose?"

2. Sorry- Buckcherry. "I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round"

3. Sober- Tool. "I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well."

4. Against All Odds- Mariah Carey. "Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain And even shared the tears You're the only one Who really knew me at all."

5. It's Still Rock and Roll to Me- Billy Joel. "There's a new band in town But you can't get the sound from a story in a magazine..."

6. Wanderlust- Flogging Molly. "Dark though it has been Your old spirit still shines within These last thirteen years depraved Of us anything that's worth sayin"

7. Take Me On the Floor- The Veronicas. "You captivate me, something about you has got me I was lonely now you make me feel alive Will you be mine tonight?....Take me on the floor I can't take it any more I want you, I want you, I want you to show me love Just take me on the floor I can give you more You kill me, you kill me, you kill me with your touch....My heart is racing as you're moving closer You take me higher with every breath I take Would it be wrong to stay? One look at you and I know what you're thinking Time's a bitch and my heart is sinking down You turn me inside out"

8. Before the Worst- The Script. "We were sitting with our backs against the world Saying things that we thought but never heard....There was a time, that we'd stay up all night Best friends talking till the daylight Took the joys alongside the pain With not much to loose, but so much to gain"

9. Everything's Magic- Angels and Airwaves. "So hear this please. And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly. And look for the stars as the sun goes down. Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound. Everything, everything's magic. Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight. Prepare for the best and the fastest ride. And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine. Everything, everything's magic."

10. Ruled by Secrecy- Muse. "Repress and restrain Steal the pressure and the pain Wash the blood off your hands"

Morning Music 7-21-09

I liked this so much yesterday, I'm trying it again. And I just gotta say, I never realized until this morning that I have 6 different songs titled "Love Song". Mind you, there are three versions of the same song in there, but still....

1. One Thing- Finger Eleven. "Between both these times I drew a really thin line It’s nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be mine Across that line....If I traded it all If I gave it all away for one thing Just for one thing If I sorted it out If I knew all about this one thing Wouldn’t that be something....Even though I know I don’t wanna know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds."

2. Make Damn Sure- Taking Back Sunday. "A long night spent with your most obvious weaknesses You start shaking at the thought You are everything I want 'Cause you are everything I'm not....And we lay, we lay together just not Too close, too close (How close is close enough?) We lay, we lay together just not Too close, too close"

3. Love Song- 311. "Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am home again Whenever I'm alone with you You make me feel like I am whole again....However far away I will always love you However long I stayI will always love you Whatever words I say I will always love you I will always love you"

4. Friends- Led Zeppelin. "Had a friend, she once told me You got love, you ain't lonely Now she's gone and left me only lookin' for what I knew"

5. Secret Spell- Tori Amos. "In one hand dreams a plenty, in her smile a secret spell. There have been disappointments, these she knows all too well... And you losing you was not a part of this plan"

6. Before the Lobotomy- Green Day. "Singing I can hear them singing When the rain had washed away All these scattered dreams"

7. Money- Pink Floyd. "Money it's a crime Share it fairly but don't take a slice of my pie Money so they say Is the root of all evil today But if you ask for a rise it's no surprise that they're giving none away"

8. Snow (Hey Oh)- Red Hot Chili Peppers. "When will I know that I really can't go To the well once more time to decide on When it's killing me, when will I really see All that I need to look inside"

9. Call Me When You're Sober- Evanescence. "How could I have burned paradise? How could I? you were never mine"

10. Love Song- Tesla. "Love is all around you, love is knockin' outside your door Waitin' for you is this love made just for two Keep an open heart and you'll find love again, I know"

Halfway There

After my binge eating weekend over the 4th of July, I began a very strict diet when I got home from up north. For a while now my weight has yo-yoed, and after the 4th I hit a very scary 245 lbs. On my 5' 10" frame, I shouldn't be much over 200, if at all. After plenty of consideration, I decided a goal weight of about 210 was good for my initial weight loss as I get back in shape.

This time around I am highly motivated, and the progress I have made in just 15 days is proof of that. I don't expect to lose 18 lbs every two weeks, but I am rather proud that I had the discipline to make it halfway to my initial goal so quickly.

I expect it will take approximately a month from here to hit my goal of 210, even with adding consistent gym visits to my diet now that I feel good enough to run again. My plan was to weigh in at or below 210 on the morning of September 19th, but now I think I can do that by August 19th, and at least by August 26th...which is very significant.

Over the last 15 days, I've allowed myself just 4 "cheat" meals. Well, I planned for two....the other two just happened when I didn't have enough will power to pass up a breakfast biscuit from McDonalds on the way to work. I might have to take a different route to work some days to make sure my autopilot doesn't take me through their drive through again.

With my other attempts at weight loss, I have tried to keep track of my progress here and have failed with the weight loss, so blogging about it fell to the wayside. This time around, I only plan to update twice; my halfway point (aka, this post here) and when I finally reach my goal. Hopefully that second post will come sooner rather than later, because I am more and more motivated for it every single day.

Morning Music: Changing the Rules

For a while now, I have been meaning to do something with the way I write about the songs I listen to in the morning to get myself moving. Since it's been damn near FOREVER since I posted about music, I figure now is as good of a time as any.

My change in very simple. I will still list the first ten songs I listen to on my iPod (usually a random shuffle) but the way I describe my thoughts about the song will be different. Instead of writing a small paragraph about the song, I will be quoting lyrics from the song.

There's no steadfast rule to how many lyrics I'll quote in one song, it could be just a few words....or a bunch of lines. I'll select the lyrics for a few different reasons. I'll quote what I think best describes the song's message, what I personally like best, what the song means to me, lyrics I think just sound cool together, something which remind me of something or someone, lyrics that really make me think, etc. It is up to you, dear reader, to determine which reason(s) I use for posting each lyric....if you so choose.

Or if you are lazy, you can just ask me.

Here are a couple playlists from last week that I will use to start this off:

Morning Music 7-14-09

1. You Could Be Mine- Guns n' Roses. "And you can take the pity so far, but it's more than I can stand"

2. You- Candlebox. "And I'll cry for you Yes, I'll die for you Pain in my heart it is real And I'll tell you now how I feel inside Feel in my heart it's for you And I'll take everything As it comes my way"

3. Sweet Emotion- Aerosmith. "You're calling my name but I gotta make clear, I can't say baby where I'll be in a year"

4. 21 Guns- Green Day. "When it's time to live and let die And you can't get another try Something inside this heart has died You're in ruins"

5. Dignity- Bob Dylan. "I went down where the vultures feed I would've got deeper, but there wasn't any need Heard the tongues of angels and the tongues of men Wasn't any difference to me"

6. 300 M.P.H. Torrential Outpour Blues- White Stripes. "Well, there's three people in the mirror And I'm wonderin' which one of them I should choose"

7. Wearing and Tearing- Led Zeppelin. "Now listen: You say your body's aching? I know that it's aching Chill bumps come up on you"

8. If I Ever Leave This World Alive- Flogging Molly. "The madness that you feel will soon subside So in a word don't shed a tear I'll be here when it all gets weird"

9. Miles Away/The Truth Is- Depeche Mode. "Your face seems so familiar And longing for more Your eyes they tell me something That I understand Your eyes they hold the truth"

10. You Are Goodbye- Holly Conlan. "Cause tomorrow and today Are only here so long When there's nothing left to say I hear that life moves on"

Morning Music 7-15-09

1. Notion- Kings of Leon. "I just wanted to know if i could go home"

2. Head Over Feet- Alanis Morrisette. "Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole You're so much braver than I gave you credit for"

3. Boys Don't Cry- The Cure. "I tried to laugh about it, Cover it all up with lies. I tried to laugh about it, Hiding the tears in my eyes. Cause boys don't cry."

4. I will Follow You into the Dark- Death Cab for Cutie. "If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark"

5. Blue and Yellow- The Used. "By the way, your hands were shaking, Rather waste some time with you. And you never would have thought in the end, How amazing it feels just to live again"

6. If- Red Hot Chili Peppers. "And if I saw the sun fall down I'd pick it up and make a crown One that was a perfect fit for you."

7. Whistles the Wind- Flogging Molly. "My isolation, now there's a sobering thought A minute alone, a lifetime too long See the face in this mirror, so pale it could crack Desperately wanting a color it lacks"

8. Krazy- Pitbull. "Latinas they get Krazy....Blanquitas they get Krazy....Negritas they get Krazy....Yo Mama she gets Krazy"

9. Jesus- Brand New. "my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark"

10. Landlocked Blues- Bright Eyes. "So I'm up at dawn, putting on my shoes I just want to make a clean escape I'm leaving but I don't know where to"

Back in the Day

My afternoon started off innocently enough. I started doing a few things online, then after a while found my way over to some streaming audio. While there, I listened to some mid/late 90s rock songs and had some memories associated with those songs pop into my head for the first time in years. I smiled at some, laughed at one, cringed at another, and eventually became overwhelmed by nostalgia.

For the most part, I am not a nostalgic person. I learned a long time ago to accept that the past is in the past, and there's nothing I can do to go back and change it or even relive it. I will often revisit things in my memory, the good, the bad, AND the ugly, and crack a silly little crooked smile thinking about whatever it was that I/we had done. It's nice to look back on your life events and get a smile or two.

Often my thoughts about the past revolve around people or pets who aren't around anymore. Whether they have died or just moved far enough away to seem dead or just someone that I grew apart from. This time, that didn't apply at all. I was nostalgic for a feeling. I didn't feel young yesterday, and missed what it felt like to be in my late teens or early twenties.

It's a very important time in anyone's development, because of just how many life lessons you learn in those few years. I mean, most of the time before that is spent focusing on how to get you there, but not on what to do once you get there. You have tons of questions, and a bunch of friends who don't know the answers either to help you explore those questions, and maybe even some of the answers too.

Thinking about it though, I'm not sure that I would choose to go back to that time now even if I could. I know there are quite a few things that I would do differently, and my life would be drastically different than it is today. There would be a few improvements I am sure, but who knows how that would effect the people (or pets) currently in my life? What makes my life worth living is the people around me and my dogs. I'd never get over making a decision differently if the consequence meant someone important to me would drift away.

Things in life, at least so far for me, seem to happen in a strange way, and often at times I least expect. You never know what life is going to throw at you, and what that will, in turn, lead you to. A long, strange, set events that were both very sad and expensive eventually led to Guinness coming into my life. While the months before the day I met Guinness, only a handful of hours before he was to be put to sleep, were pure mental anguish, the years that followed have been enhanced by his presence in a way that very few people could ever know or understand. I rescued him from the gas chamber, and my boy has been rescuing me on a daily basis ever since.

Some great friends have come into my life purely by chance as well. It's funny to compare life stories now and "I was there TOO" moments with the friends that I just happened to come across after years of crossing paths with but never meeting. The right place and right time finally presented itself though, and the rest is history.

Knowing that these vital aspects of my life could be affected by me doing anything different would weigh too heavily on my mind for me to even be able to feel the same way I did back then. So any thoughts of "going back" wouldn't really get any consideration from me anyway if it were a possibility.

I guess I am just going to have to keep reliving my youth one snippet of memory at a time, and reflect on how great today is because of all those fleeting moments long ago.

Mood Music

It's no secret that music can effect my mood. Wow has that statement ever been true today. Since I woke up at 4, my mood has just been looking for a reason to change....and change it has, like every 20 minutes.

Throughout the day, and actually this has applied to the whole week, my mood has been bouncing all over the place. Tonight iTunes has a lot to do with it. There were a few things I wanted to get done online tonight, since I slept through the entire afternoon again, and while I was doing them, I had iTunes on shuffle.

I began to get distracted. Certain songs would lead me to certain places online, and nothing I intended to do was getting done. I guess it's a blessing in disguise in one way, since I am finally getting another blog post up, but it's tough on me when I feel this A.D.D.

I'm sure my lack of concentration is apparent in this post as well, but I guess I just had to get this thought out of my head on down "on paper". While one of my Facebook friends commented tonight that Facebook is like free therapy, and I kind of agree, I think this little corner of the internet I reside in is much better....even if it's just some disjointed rambling about music affecting my mood.
COME AND OPEN UP YOUR FOLDING CHAIR NEXT TO ME
Now with this realization firmly in my grasp, I will try to get some sleep and let Regina sing me a lullaby or two once I get in bed. I always seem to sleep better with her.
MY FEET ARE BURIED IN THE SAND AND THERE'S A BREEZE

Taking Off

I have been looking forward to this long weekend for a while now. I had a great time up north over Memorial Weekend, and this one looks to be even better. The weather is going to be Max friendly (and more importantly Guinness friendly) and I should be able to beat a lot of the traffic today since I get off work so early. Hopefully I will be unpacking just as rush hour starts.

One of the best things about being up north is the lack of communication when I am up there. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365.25 days a year I have my phone on me, and turned on. If it rings, I answer. Service in the cabin is spotty at best, and when we are on the lake I don't get any service at all. It's a little easier to relax when you know the phone won't ring.

The flip side of that is that I won't have any internet service the whole weekend....then again, is that all that bad either? Unplugging every now and again is somewhat therapeutic. My time up there will be well spent, even if I don't do a damn thing the whole time.

Random Survey

Last night I took some Motrin before going to bed to help me sleep with this pulled neck muscle, which is getting better....but still not completely healed. I thought I had eaten recently enough for it to not bother my stomach, but I was wrong.

I pulled myself out of bed 19 minutes after 11 and jumped in my truck, figuring an Oreo shake from BK would do the trick. 20 minutes, and TWO BKs later, I sat down to eat and watch the end of the Tiger game. They were playing in Oakland, so I knew they'd be on til about 1am.

To entertain myself as I ate and watched the bullpen struggle to put away the A's, I was bouncing around the web on my laptop, where I came across this survey and decided to fill it out. Since I don't post these things on Facebook or Myspace (does Myspace even exist anymore?), I figured I would post it here.

1) What is your boyfriend/girlfriends name? While I am currently off the market, I don't have a significant other. It just doesn't make sense for me to date right now.

2) What color underwear/boxers wearing now? Navy

3) What are you listening to right now? Amazing by Kanye. I blame the NBA Playoff commercials for this.

4) Whats your favorite number? 56

5) What was the last thing you ate? 19g of dry Cheerios. 70 calories to start my day off.

6) When was the last time you smiled? When I opened my e-mail this morning.

7) How is the weather right now? Overcast and seasonably cool.

8) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My mommy.

9) What is your worst habit? Procrastinating

11) Do you drink? Rarely

12) Do you smoke? That's even rarer.

13) When was the last time, if ever, blacked-out from drinking? December 2006 in Vegas.

14) Hair color? Light brown

15) Eye Color? Light brown

16) Do you wear contacts? No

17) Favorite Holiday? Halloween. I can dress and act inappropriately, girls costumes get smaller and smaller every year, and its less than a week before my birthday.

18) Favorite Month? April. It usually when I can start looking forward to riding on a somewhat consistent basis.

19) Have you ever cried for no reason? Not that I can recall.

20) What was the last movie you watched? I watched Star Wars Episode II last night on TV, but the last movie I went out to see was The Hangover this past Saturday. Very good movie. I was completely uninterested in it when I saw the trailer for it, but heard enough good reviews to go see it. I am glad I did.

21) Favorite Day of the Year? Well, it's not the same day each year....but it's for the same reason. This year it will be October 8th. I'll be flying to Vegas that morning.

22) Are you too shy to ask someone out? I don't think I have ever had a problem with this.

23) Last advice you received? "ALWAYS take ALL meds with food or milk." Not a bad idea really.

24) What was the highlight of your weekend? My Sunday ride with Cory and Tish. We put about 150 miles on the bikes, and in the middle of it we got to have dinner with my parents at Zukey Lake Tavern.

25) Chocolate or Vanilla? It depends, but usually Vanilla....covered in chocolate, well hot fudge really. Mmmm.

26) What is the last text message you received? Not sure, I erase them very frequently....and the last one I have saved is definitely not to be shared. My eyes only. :-)

27) What is the last text message you sent? "Join the coven....lol." Instead of join the club....see what I did there? In response to someone talking about being part vampire lately since they don't sleep at night.

28) Who was the last person to call you? My mommy, after two calls to her went unanswered yesterday afternoon when I wanted to let her know that the drive-by near my house didn't affect me at all....and that I wasn't the dead body found in a Grand Cherokee in Detroit either.

29) What books are you reading? None at the moment, but would love some suggestions. I will need something for the weekend up north, and if I don't get some good suggestions I will just reread The Odyssey. I got the idea after talking to Mark yesterday about "the classics" and how many are overrated, but I still have my favorites....like The Odyssey.

30) When was the last time you slept in someone else's bed? I've slept on beds or couches that aren't mine recently, but I don't remember the last time I slept in someone else's bed. Wow, I should probably remedy that.

31) Favorite movie? Fight Club

32) Favorite football team? Washington Redskins....despite the name being so insensitive to Natives.

NOTHING TO SEE HERE....HONESTLY

33) What were you doing before this? Preparing my spreadsheets for the day....FUN.

34. Any pets? Two wonderful dogs.

36) Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Butter and salt, but I need to cut all of that out anyway.

37) Dogs or cats? Dogs....but we can keep a few cats around for my dogs to "play" with.

38) Favorite flowers? I like the look of roses, but I LOVE the smell of lilac.

39) When was the last time you got in trouble? I'm too boring to get into trouble anymore.

41) Have you ever loved someone? Without a doubt.

42) Who would you like to see right now? I've got someone in mind....

43) Are you still friends with people from kindergarten ? I wouldn't classify Jeff as a "friend" anymore since I only see him once every few years, but if I saw him more often we would still be good friends I am sure.

44) Have you ever fired a gun? Yes, but not recently enough. I need to get back to the range.

45) Do you like to travel by plane? Yes, it's SO much easier....assuming the trip wouldn't be drivable in 4 hours or less. If that's the case, I'd rather be behind the wheel....or handlebars if the weather is nice.

46) What website do you frequently visit? CNN.com probably gets most of my pageloads.

47) If you could be with someone right now, who would it be? I already answered this as vaguely as possible before....see number 42.

48) How many pillows do you sleep with? Three on the bed, only one under my head.

49) Are you missing someone? I usually am.

50) Do you have a Tattoo? Not yet, but I have a feeling if I ever get one....I'll end up with at least 4.

51) Are there people on your myspace page that you would date or go on a date with? I have no clue....myspace is dead to me nowadays. Now if I applied this to Facebook? Definitely.